What Going On?

The new year is so close! I thought I'd shared a bit about life since my journey in hopes to inspire you and humble myself.

So most of you all know I "Kissed Dating Goodbye" back in October. I'll be honest with you guys. I failed. Miserably. I won't go into detail but I'll just quote Joshua Harris and say "a pricked heart means nothing without a change in direction."

I knew I needed to make a change, however, I didn't provide myself with the tools to do that successfully. I didn't define what dating was and wasn't and I didn't define friendship. Therefore, I allowed others to come in and define it for me.

You know, I've honestly struggled with that for a while; allowing others to define the world around me. My freshman year, I went into college as a girl who had had never really took the time to know God for herself. I'd been going to church my entire life but I never really sought a personal relationship with God. I was just supposed to blindly follow this man in the sky who told me what to do right? Well this false definition of God led me to allow others to turn me away from him. That year was probably the most confusing time in my life.

Thankfully, God showed me the way back. He showed me who he was. He showed me that he was love and he told me through his word and his blessings that he loves me and that Jesus loves me.

It's so funny, I've been singing "Jesus loves me" since I could sing. I also listened every Sunday to the story of how he died on the cross for my sins and yet I still didn't fully believe.

Early November, I made the life changing decision to be re-baptized. I believe that baptism is essentially to salvation, however, I also believe that in order for your salvation to be valid you must also believe. I think that at the time of my first baptism I understood what I was doing and that I had good intentions but the fact that my faith was so easily swayed proved to me that I didn't truly believe.

I'm writing this today because I believe; I believe that God gave me a gift that allows me to reach people, especially my girls.

So many people have approached me about my journey and have told me how I've inspired them and compare me to some type of angel. I'm so thankful to God for giving a life story that inspires but trust me I am no angel. I make mistakes and I want you all to know that.

Don't worry though I haven't given up on my test. I made mistakes but that doesn't mean God can't keep using me. I was reading the book I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris and there is a part in the book that states when you make a mistake you can only do two things: continue foolishly on your course hoping your problems will disappear or swallow your pride and start over and remove the things in your life that don't need to be there.

This is me swallowing my pride and starting over. On my Birthday January 8th, 2015 I will be starting my dating journey over. (By the way I hate the word journey do you have any other suggestions?)

I will use this site as my outlet to share my progress in hopes to inspire you. Even if you don't go on a one year fast I believe that now more than ever it is important for all of us to understand what love is and is not. I also think it's important for us to learn how to have successful relationships in general! With our parents, friends, and romantic interests. We need to learn how to treat one another and how to love one another. And the best way to learn how to love is to go to love himself, God.

I hope this wasn't too long lol. But I really wanted to get that out. I will leave you guys with this powerful poem by Joe entitled Shadow of A Doubt it brings me to tears but it definitely puts God's love and faith in perspective. CLICK HERE

I love you guys!

 *Kisses* (P.S. Can I still end off with kisses if I kissed dating goodbye? Questions that must be answered lol)

Admiria